Reality is sinking in...

This may sound ridiculous because I've been diagnosed for almost a year and a half and have had the disease for almost 7 years...yet Tuesday it was like the reality of having this disease just hit me. I'm dealing with my entire life changing but it took my first injection to really make me realize this isn't a terrible dream I'm going to wake up from and be able to laugh about later. You want to see a full grown 25 year old baby...hand me a needle and tell me I have to stick myself with it. 7 years ago at the ripe age of 18 I signed a contract saying that if called upon I would defend my country even if it lead to my own death without even the slightest hesitation and yet some how that stupid needle has managed to get the best of me. You should have seen the show my tremors put on...try throwing a needle with a shaky hand. I am proud to say though that through the tears and shaky hand I DID IT!!! The disappointing part is I don't foresee this being any easier on me anytime soon. The fact that I know if it works I'll have to do it the rest of my life also doesn't make it easier. Permanent things like that are just not very easy to swallow. To add to my lack of motivation to do this once a week I was in the 49% of people who get really awesome flu like symptoms...seriously?!?! somehow I always manage to fall in the rarer situation...and I'm starting to realize that really isn't that cool. lol. All in all I'm praying that I will find the strength to do this once a week and that it will help. until next time...keep your chin up out there.